I’m back. I’ve taken a blogging break and I’ve needed to.
It’s been a period of lament and celebration. A time of tears. A time of desiring to be comforted and defended. A time of self-care.
In this break:
-My best friend, Chels went into remission. She got a job and moved to Indy. We are going to be roommates and are looking for apartments. (Crazy? I know, right!)
-I spent some time writing, specifically submitting articles to a chronic illness online support group.
-I purchased a 2 week yoga pass and went to several classes.
-I landed a job interview! (more details later…)
-I hosted a dear friend from Chicago.
-I decided on a spiritual director to meet with at least for the next year.
-I ate at yummy restaurants and shopped at farmer’s markets.
-I cancelled plans.
-I laid in bed for a few days straight without a definite reason
It’s been a full month. I’ve felt overwhelmed and defensive at times, and at other times incredibly thankful for the present moment. There have been times of rich enjoyment and suffocating sadness. Many moments I’ve felt like I’m drowning, but I wasn’t. I’m just learning not to be anxious about tomorrow.
As you step into your calling this summer, but particularly tomorrow, may you feel deeply, enjoying life to the fullest, yet grieving at wrongs committed. May you choose to see what is true, to discern your heart’s wanderings, to laugh.
May your life be preserved as you journey in feeling deeply, as you pray your deepest longings.
What emotions resonate most deeply with you now?
How are you growing in feeling deeply?