Next month, I will start a class on spiritual direction in Indy. Since signing up, I’ve felt tentative.
Why did I sign up?
I’m not prepared enough.
What is spiritual direction anyway?
Why do I feel a sense in me that I just need to ‘find out more?’
As I’ve started delving into my reading, preparing for this first class, I’ve paused at these sentences that author Susan Phillips uses to describe her work as a spiritual director in her book Candlelight: Illuminating the Art of Spiritual Direction:
“I listen for the depths of humanity, believing that in those storied, embodied, sensate, emotional, intellectual, social and spiritual depths lies the presence of God. An encounter with God is not achieved by stripping us of our human nature, but rather entering into it honestly, as Jesus did. As a new relationship begins, I listen for the ways God encounters the real person and how the person prays from the depths of his or her heart.”
I discovered spiritual direction by attending a few solitude retreats at Sustainable Faith Indy and talking to the hosts, who so graciously welcomed me into their home for quiet reflection in the midst of an undiagnosis and unrelenting fatigue. I left their home thinking “I want to become like them.” So at their home for 5 weekends this next year, with a small cohort, we will learn together about spiritual direction and what it means to be a spiritual director. And over the course of this year, I know I will be changed. I hope I become a person for can embrace stillness and rest even more fully, enter into conversation more attentively, and see the stirrings of God more acutely in myself and others.
As I come home from work and read, I find myself crying, reflecting, and knowing that this is my most weighty adventure this year. I can’t wait to tell all of you more over the coming year.
What adventures are you taking over the coming year?
How do you wish to learn and grow?