I haven’t shared a “formal” update of how I’ve been doing health-wise, so I thought I would update everyone.
The winter has been incredible for me. There have been quite a number breakthroughs in my health in ways that I can’t entirely explain. Winter has been a season of trying new things, diving into friendships, feeling more established in my business. There has been both hard work & joy, challenging, yet simple decisions that needed to be made.
The season of winter has accelerated my healing in the last few years, and so I’ve learned to take intentional steps to slow down, and make sure that my body is responding appropriately to nature’s signals. That meant that the Christmas season had a much slower pace, and I just said no to lots of things. Joining Wayfinding’s conversations and practices around a simpler holiday season were life-giving and grounding for me.
I took a 4 week Christmas break because I could! At the end of those 4 weeks, I attended the Mystic Soul Conference, where I was encouraged to breathe in community. I was challenged and encouraged.
I’ve been meeting with an EMDR therapist since October, and our work together has been very fruitful. She’s helped to guide me back to my body’s knowledge–that I hadn’t lost my voice, it was just buried under heaps of trauma.
I decided not to join a yoga studio, but instead to learn Qigong at the Indy Healing Center. Qigong is an energy practice, and the movements, have not only helped me continue to connect with my own body, but my own energy, in a very deep way. I’m excavating my own limiting beliefs through this practice and becoming more and more aware of how my mind has been affected by illness. I’m learning about the organ systems, and what it means to be out of balance. This practice has been a huge part of the transformational work I’m doing right now!
I’ve been breathing! Deeply and in healing ways. I start my morning with a breath work practice, reminding myself of my own powerful life force, and I transition from breathing into writing for 20 minutes before I start my day. I participated in several group breath work classes this winter as well.
I’m choosing to believe that my narrative is so much more important than my health stats & numbers. My latest food allergy test revealed that I have healed a lot of my food allergies, although my candida still remains stubborn. I’m starting to wonder/believe/hope that I can heal my candida through energy work, rather than loads of supplements & medicines.
My qigong teacher stated as a side comment in class, “Thyroid issues start to show up when a person is no longer able to express their purpose.” That statement was meant for me. For I’m discovering that the more I speak my truth in public (not just in my journal!), the healthier I feel. After years of processing and grief (and generally being stuck and too much in my head), I finally connected to the Energy needed to forgive. And I will need this to keep on forgiving, myself included.
I’m working a full-time job, and I’m doing well. I’m learning how to conserve my energy, how to guide my students daily, and yet how to regain that energy that I gave while teaching for several hours per day. It’s amazing. I had no idea if full-time was even possible or what it would look like–but it’s here and it’s good. My smile is coming back.
I found my way to a new church, St. Christopher’s Episcopal. There is this energetic draw to the Christian church that I’m trying to find words for. And I’m a millennial, quite aware of the issues at hand, and that more and more people are leaving the church in droves. I think I’m asking “Why am I here?” while I keep on attending. More questions than answers, and that’s quite alright.
What is saving my life right now?
- My own breath
- Writing on the question “Who am I & how do I know?”
- Telling the truth
- Becoming reacquainted with my strength
- Gluten-free BBQ chicken pizza from Jan’s Village Pizza (Westfield shout-out!)
- Laughter about trying to make Paleo frosting that tasted great but looked awful!
- Playing a well-loved hand-made game of go-fish dyslexia-style, with several of my students.
- Friday night pizza ritual coming back–can you tell I’ve been missing pizza?!
- Falling asleep watching the Olympics
- Brunch, and coffee, and dinner with friends.
- A London fog at Noble Coffee & Tea, to make lesson planning more bearable.
- Qigong, particularly the “Dragon Stands Between Heaven & Earth”
- Impact statements from the Larry Nassar case-such bravery & honesty in the quest of healing.
- An introduction into ancestral healing at the Mystic Soul Conference